MOMENTS WITH TOLU

  Hello fam, I really want to say a big thank you to you all for the show of love and pampering during my birthday and beyond. I felt really loved. Thank you for the comments, gifts, prayers, love.... Goosh I feel so blessed to have you all in my life. I love you all so deeply. You all are the real MVPs.  Your circle, (by circle I mean, the people in your circle of influence who really impacts you, who has greater influence on you than sometimes your mind and heart) is one of the best gift you would gift yourself after self discovery . Your circle is so powerful that, the kind of person that you become is largely dependent on that group because that's where you pick the values you make decisions from.  Sometimes during the year,  I started to feel uneasiness about a particular aspect of my life. I knew that I needed to upscale in that aspect but my will power wasn't enough to upscale. I knew it wasn't something I should be doing, I knew I needed help but one way or the ot

  It was my birthday on Monday... Yaaay...I still have the birthday vibe, because I've been pampered, goosh, it's been sweet. Also because I'm not used to being pampered, so a new chapter had to start with some pampering and I'm still open for more pampering oo.  I'm so grateful to God for the privilege of life and the journey. Has it been all rosy? Of course not but it has been amazing with God by my side.  It's been a journey of help and transitioning into seasons. A journey of complete and total trust in God. A journey of submission and humility. A journey of resilience and consistency. Oh my, I've grown and evolved, even me, I'm amazed at the growth and journey.  I smell the coffee brewing, so refreshing but yet it I sense it's a season to position for the prepared table. It's a chapter of evolving and depth by the spirit of God. I'm so open to what he has for me. Do I know what it is? No I don't but I know His plans for me are so am

  Yup.. I had a fling. No one is a Saint. Stop rolling your eyes at me. Yes you... Lol.. It was my past anyways but let me give you the gist.  It was at a time in my life, I had just left university and I didn't have any serious relationship. I was just doing "good geh upandan" and I wanted to try the "bad geh" role.. Lol. Then I met this guy, he was cool, first he invited me to see a movie with him at the cinema. We ate, played games. It was a fun evening and we enjoyed ourselves. Then we lost contact, and so there was distance.  Then some months later, we met again and we were in each others radar. So i decided to flirt with him knowing that it wasn't going to go anywhere, I just wanted to distract myself and get attention from a man. I just wanted to switch from who I was to who I wasn't. I wanted to feel among.  He started coming to visit me, we started to enjoy each others company but I knew something wasn't right, he began to tell me lies.. Lol

  Yes, you read right, I'm pregnant. The next question that pops in your mind is.. How? What happened? How would she make such mistake. I know yeah.. Don't crucify me yet. #smlz.  Well, let me say its the season of my life, painful yeah but I'm grateful for it. I didn't plan it. It wasn't part of my plans but yeah, it happened. I'm not scared but I'm anxious. I really want this phase to be over, but His will not mine. Every phase is really unprecedented. I don't know what would happen next but I'm really hopeful and I'm certain that all things would work together for my good.  I'm pregnant and I think a lot of people are as well but they don't know they are in their pregnancy season. By saying I'm pregnant, I don't mean physically.  The pregnancy season is a season where all you have planned out fails you, everything that seems to work for you before just decides to play tricks on you. All the methods you knew before now stopped w