MOMENTS WITH TOLU

  Hello fam, I really want to say a big thank you to you all for the show of love and pampering during my birthday and beyond. I felt really loved. Thank you for the comments, gifts, prayers, love.... Goosh I feel so blessed to have you all in my life. I love you all so deeply. You all are the real MVPs.  Your circle, (by circle I mean, the people in your circle of influence who really impacts you, who has greater influence on you than sometimes your mind and heart) is one of the best gift you would gift yourself after self discovery . Your circle is so powerful that, the kind of person that you become is largely dependent on that group because that's where you pick the values you make decisions from.  Sometimes during the year,  I started to feel uneasiness about a particular aspect of my life. I knew that I needed to upscale in that aspect but my will power wasn't enough to upscale. I knew it wasn't something I should be doing, I knew I needed help but one w...

  It was my birthday on Monday... Yaaay...I still have the birthday vibe, because I've been pampered, goosh, it's been sweet. Also because I'm not used to being pampered, so a new chapter had to start with some pampering and I'm still open for more pampering oo.  I'm so grateful to God for the privilege of life and the journey. Has it been all rosy? Of course not but it has been amazing with God by my side.  It's been a journey of help and transitioning into seasons. A journey of complete and total trust in God. A journey of submission and humility. A journey of resilience and consistency. Oh my, I've grown and evolved, even me, I'm amazed at the growth and journey.  I smell the coffee brewing, so refreshing but yet it I sense it's a season to position for the prepared table. It's a chapter of evolving and depth by the spirit of God. I'm so open to what he has for me. Do I know what it is? No I don't but I know His plans for me are so am...

  Yup.. I had a fling. No one is a Saint. Stop rolling your eyes at me. Yes you... Lol.. It was my past anyways but let me give you the gist.  It was at a time in my life, I had just left university and I didn't have any serious relationship. I was just doing "good geh upandan" and I wanted to try the "bad geh" role.. Lol. Then I met this guy, he was cool, first he invited me to see a movie with him at the cinema. We ate, played games. It was a fun evening and we enjoyed ourselves. Then we lost contact, and so there was distance.  Then some months later, we met again and we were in each others radar. So i decided to flirt with him knowing that it wasn't going to go anywhere, I just wanted to distract myself and get attention from a man. I just wanted to switch from who I was to who I wasn't. I wanted to feel among.  He started coming to visit me, we started to enjoy each others company but I knew something wasn't right, he began to tell me lies.. Lol...

  Yes, you read right, I'm pregnant. The next question that pops in your mind is.. How? What happened? How would she make such mistake. I know yeah.. Don't crucify me yet. #smlz.  Well, let me say its the season of my life, painful yeah but I'm grateful for it. I didn't plan it. It wasn't part of my plans but yeah, it happened. I'm not scared but I'm anxious. I really want this phase to be over, but His will not mine. Every phase is really unprecedented. I don't know what would happen next but I'm really hopeful and I'm certain that all things would work together for my good.  I'm pregnant and I think a lot of people are as well but they don't know they are in their pregnancy season. By saying I'm pregnant, I don't mean physically.  The pregnancy season is a season where all you have planned out fails you, everything that seems to work for you before just decides to play tricks on you. All the methods you knew before now stopped w...

It's been like forever since I wrote to you all, I'm sorry, its been an emotional traumatised week for me and most Nigerians especially in the last two weeks. It's been a lot. I pray God heal of our hearts and help us birth the New Nigeria of our dreams.  The Scent of Hope is so dear to me because It was a revelation that weighed on my heart as a burden. I thought about it every time until I decided to yield to my spirit to put it down into writing . I'm also being blessed by it.  The past 3 months for me has been quite eventful. I've had to make decisions that I never thought I could make so easy and swiftly . I've had to go against my words and make choices beyond my emotions. They've been really unprecedented. Decisions that looks like my future pointing its guns at me saying choose between your present pleasure over your future pain or future pleasure over present pain. They were tough guys. I cried making some of them. I literally have to borrow courage...

Excuse is a common word found everywhere. It's just like a piece  of paper that when not properly disposed, it liters every where including our lives and liters are dirt.  Excuse begins first in your mind as a thought then you take actions towards those thoughts.  Excuses are flimsy, yet very interesting and easy to come up with but they produce nothing. It's funny how we easily come up with something to say especially when a task is to be done. You know how a child quickly come up with lies after being caught red handed, that's the way excuses are. The painful part of coming up with excuses is the acceptance by the society that is why a lot of us settle for status quo.  We all live with this enemy called excuse. This enemy is the reason you've not started the business, its the reason you've not written that book. It's the reason your still where you are. It's the reason you are not praying but you are saying to yourself, I would be praying in my mind. It...

  Hmmm… A journey is a long trip filled with unknowns. Unknowns mixed with   lots of emotions Emotions that have different bus stops and tides Tides of emotions, not a function of smartness or experience. Emotions subject to self-awareness.   Self-awareness itself is a journey never-ending. Its ends only when breath takes the halt in your flesh. The flesh then gives way to your spirit. Well, the Spirit is always the teacher.   The Journey called WHY... WHY is a question A question of the heart A question of motive A question of purpose A question of strength A question of fulfillment A question of hope A question of end A question of beginning A question of fight. ...And the list goes on and on... The Question of WHY is really a journey that has no end It’s a journey but yet in the answer, therein lies our peace. The answer to WHY births our freedom.   The question of why is a question of vulnerability Answ...