MOMENTS WITH TOLU

  Hello fam, I know it's been like forever but I just needed to put this out here, I can't keep it to myself.  I know I've written something similar to this before, but this experience is different. I've tried to give it another title but no other title can do justice other than God can be Trusted.  Sometimes in 2020, when I felt led to resign my job to start Adire(I've shared the story on my blog) I didn't argue but I wasn't so sure how it was all going to turn out but I trusted the voice I heard, some months after, I had my afternoon nap which is so unlike me, I woke up and I heard in this season call me ADUNBARIN (God is sweet to walk with). I held unto that name like I knew no other name, I used it to pray, used it on my status, it soon became my mantra.  Months after I got ADUNBARIN, things became very tough, I was broke, I didn't know how to go about the Adire Business, I had never done it before, didn't know whether to go into casuals, fabrics...

  This week for me has been all sort of "amazing". The way I have worried my brain ehn, I had over thinking syndrome, calculated every of my thoughts, I even thought on God's behalf ..lol., it was really stressful. I don't think I ever want to be in this position again. Someone said "even your thought of God is still human". I know it is easy to slip into control and calculative mood , especially when you are expectant about something and it's been long overdue and you've done all you think you should have done as a human being, the best place to be is just to constantly, consistently and intentionally hand over it all to God, each time you get to that control mood, just say " Holy Spirit, I'm here again o, Help me, I hand over this situation/ person to you. Take the wheels from my hands" . And you don't do this once and move on, you must always do it each time you are feeling overwhelmed, you can as well switch into praise, dance ...

  Hey fam, thank you for your consistent support and feedbacks. I feel so honored doing life with you all. Fam, can you believe that the initial post I was going to post didn't save, I took my laptop to edit, only for me to realize that it was just the title that got saved. I was so pained and decided I wasn't going to write anything again, I would just edit one of those I wrote earlier in the week but it didn't jell with me, so I reluctantly, started to write again and this sweet sleep came , I became sleepy and I just heard a whisper from the Holy Spirit and then we began to have a conversation. Holy Spirit : " Are you not hungry ? " Me "Yes".. Holy Spirit : " Why don't you go downstairs and find something to eat" . Me: "ok" Goes downstairs, and got something to eat and sleep left my eyes #soberface Me : starts to laugh, Holy Spirit, you sabi chyke babe sha...lol Holy Spirit: I love to tease you and you, toast you know I'm ...

  Hello Beautiful family, it's 2022... Whooosh, Happy New year... I know it's been like forever, so much has happened, so much gist to catch you up with, so many testimonies, so many mistakes,  lots of beautiful memories and most importantly , so many lessons. 2021 was indeed a year, a year I had to grow and mature fast and a year with so much lessons, yes, it was a tough year but that is how we grow, yeah? And we move. I know its a new year  and lots of people already have new year resolutions and the likes, the vision boarders have done their vision boards, prophecies have also gone ahead, I'm definitely not against all of these, but what is most important to me is YOU. What is your YOU goals, all of the results you want to achieve is based on who you are and who you become. Make your YOU growth a priority more than the results, the results you see in your life are proof of the growth and the inputs you have invested in your self. So make YOU important, YOU in your spir...

 Hey Fam, how have you all been? Trust you've been great, I know I've not been very consistent with my writing, I've been up to a lot and all happening at the same time. But I promise to do better. For a while now, I've been hearing the word "Show up", I even had to go back to my one of my writing "Just show up" and I asked myself, why should I go back to write about showing up but I realized that it is a message my brain must get used to. Some months back, I was privileged to be part of an amazing organization that has fast tracked my growth by 1000%. There was this particular day, we  were asked to meet for a physical meeting as against the usual virtual meeting we've been having, I didn't feel like it at all. I was too tired to leave my house but I told myself to try to go that I won't be long to come back home. When I got to the venue, I still didn't see the reason for me showing up, after like an hour, I didn't...

Dear Tolulope, I write to you today with humble admiration and with so much joy in my heart. I  am so thankful for  you. I'm so inspired by your growth. I'm just very thankful of you . God is indeed very kind to you. Remember, how you started the journey of awareness, remember how clueless you were? You had no idea of how the journey would look like but you chose hunger. I saw how you were so hungry for more. You just wanted more and you pursued with endless passion, perseverance and courage. I remember days when you almost gave up and then you would journal the experience and keep going. I saw how you trusted God like that was your last resort. You pursued him with reckless abandon and you chose Obedience over comfort. I am so proud of you Tolulope. I am writing to you today to tell you how pretty you are,  you are pretty not because you are beautiful you are pretty because you are aware of your existence and you daily live your life intentionally. Tolulope Ayanfe as you...

  Fam, aren't you all amazing? Thank you for all the love, feedbacks and comments on my previous post, I was really elated to read from you all. Thank you for your support and love, it is the fuel that keeps me going. My proposal came not as a surprise, at the same time it was not something I prepared for. I knew something was coming but I couldn't place it, I knew something would hit me that would change my life and cause a rapid shift to my becoming, but I didn't know how or when. In my last post, I mentioned how I started the year clueless without having an idea about how the year would unfold, I was just sure I had God and I knew He would definitely order my steps, I was certain I can't miss it anymore at this phase of my life. So, after I said my goodbyes, I knew it was time for me to embrace the new me knocking at the door of my becoming. I knew I was to accept the invitation, but I also felt I needed certain level of preparation to accept the invitation. One fate...

Goodbyes are always hard, especially if it's something we love or someone we are used to. But sometimes it's the beginning of a new journey. I started January very blank, didn't know what to do or what to expect. I didn't have any goal, no expectation whatsoever. The only thing I was sure I had was God, family and friends. I didn't know how I was going to navigate through the year, I didn't know what to pray about or even prepare for. I was sincerely clueless but I had an open heart and I was sensitive to hear what the Spirit was telling me. I didn't even have prayer point to pray, I remember me telling God to put other people's burden in my heart so I could pray for them... Lol.. As the year unfolds, I was expectant, I knew I had baggages to drop, my business wasn't going as I expected, I had bills piling up, funds were not coming from no where, I knew something has to change but I didn't know what exactly. Then sometimes in February, I started ...

  Happy new month Fam.  How's your month starting out? Mine is starting on a very great note. I'm just so super excited. The energy I feel in this month feels like I'm just starting the year, I'm sure some of you can relate. I'm so excited about this second half, even more than I started the year. Some days back, I decided to go down the memory lane, I went back to some old pictures, I came across some old chats, Google photos did a great job to help me with this. I always ensure I back up my chats, I have chats as far back as 2017, I began to go through some of them. I had fun, I had a good laugh, I teared up with some memories. While going through some of my chats, I came across some things I had said to certain people, some promises I had made, some nasty things I had said. Some foolish conversations I've had.. Lol.. Goosh, I've been foolish oo but guess what, I saw my growth, I saw my becoming, I see how I've blossomed and still blossoming. I saw mom...

  Hey fam💃💃💃💃💃 💃 It's really been Like forever... Who missed me??. Lol.. I missed me too. I couldn't wait to be back. I have a lot of gist to give you all. So many roller coaster moments.. Chai.. In all of it God gat me. He was really there.. He is still here. Now let's dive in.. My heart Transplant is one of my biggest miracle. God is so kind. I'm still in awe each time I remember this miracle. Some years years back, out of my curiosity to know why God decided to say to King David.. I've found a man after my heart and I decided to do a research and I found out that when a heart Transplant is done, the new recipient of the heart start to have the same emotions as the old recipient. They start to think same way, same emotions, same feelings, same vulnerability. The same Bible tell us that from the heart flows the issues of life. Fast forward to 2021, sometimes in February, I started another season in my life that was so stretching, I had to leave my family comp...

  Hey fam, how have you been? Thank you for the love on my previous impromptu post. I'm really blessed to have you all in my space.  Thank you. My faith journey is one of those that makes me really vulnerable and grateful at the same time. It's a journey of me being a child completely. It's a journey of complete trust. It's a journey of trusting my ears to pick heaven's words. It's a journey where I completely rely on the Holy Spirit to lead my heart. It's a journey of YES Lord, I trust you. It's a journey of complete brokenness. It's a journey of "Lord, even if I don't see you working, you never stop working". As I write this, I'm still in awe of how far I've come. It's been a long stretching journey but worth it. The story that comes to mind is the story of Abraham, how God told him to leave his family, to a land he had no idea about, to a land where God would show him. He didn't have an idea of what and when and how, ...

 Fam, you all are really the best. The feedback from my last post was really hilarious. I couldn't stop laughing, from comments to DMs. Thank you so much, you all keep me going. Today I want to give you a sweet gist about my Church. For me, after the gift of family and friends, my church is next.. Goosh... Fam, just like you can't afford to be in a wrong marriage and negative friendship, you can't afford to be in a church that's not yours. Here's what I mean, just like the children of Jacob were split into tribes. That's how our churches are designed. We have different denominations and doctrines but we have same God.  Another illustration is, just like in a family, there is is a family lineage, we can have same surname but not same nuclear family. That's how having your church is. You need your own "family church ". A place you call your own, a place you feel at home, a place where you are trained and nurtured to mature into the things of the king...

  Hey fam, how are you you doing? Happy valentine in arrears. I'm still in the euphoria of love and I'm so grateful for the relationships I have in my life. I feel so blessed having you all... I'm really a wealthy woman because of you all.  Today, I would be giving you gist about my first love... Yass.. Stop rolling your eyes at me... Someone has got to be the first, right?   I had my first love in secondary. Lol... I'm not a bad girl, but there was just this boy that wouldn't make me rest.. He was cute, brilliant and funny in his way.  I got into my first relationship out of curiosity especially because my mum told me "boys are bad" and I'm like, let me try it for myself and then this boy comes around and started to chyke (slang for giving a girl attention) me, telling me how beautiful I was, helping me with my debates, he then became my co-debater... Lol.. I started to have butterflies... #coveringface. He started to challenge me with the way he spea...

  Whoops whooos whoops.. I don't even have words to express how I feel but I sincerely want to thank you guys. Thank you for your comments on THE SECRET. I think it has the highest view in recent times. Thank you all for your kind words. You guys pace me and help me get better.  I really didn't plan that there would be a part 2 to THE SECRET , but who am I to decide? He leads and I follow gladly. The second part to the secret is what we all do but not consciously. I also consciously started practice this secret sometimes in 2019. Guess what the secret is......lemme whisper to you..  It is INTERCESSION.. Praying for others and carry the burden of the father in prayers.  Intercession is one of the greatest secret of relevance and dominance. Its a secret that paves way for you even when you are not praying for yourself. Intercession is one of the weapon to win your life battles. Intercession is forgetting your pain and carry other people's burden and helping them to bir...